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Guess What?

I’m officially an iPhone owner! I know some of you may think it was not a big deal or there’s nothing to be proud of, bla bla and guess what? I couldn’t care less. I have always wanted to own an iPhone since forever. It’s on my bucket list. Haha.

I know what I want, 64gb silver iPhone 6. Unfortunately, they were out of stock so instead getting an iPhone 6, I bought 64gb space gray iPhone 6 plus. Why space gray?

Here’s the story. The salesman said that they had iPhone 6 plus in silver and gold so I told him I want the silver one. After he swipe my mother’s credit card, he told me he made a mistake regarding the colors. They actually didn’t have silver, only space gray and gold.

And of course, I was furious. I was so happy to have my own iPhone and then my mood just change 180 degrees. I even felt like I want to burn that store and the salesman. You have one job, mister! ūüė§

He kept saying I should buy the gold one because the front is white just like the silver iPhone. I don’t really care whether it is black or white on the front, i just want a silver iPhone and pfft, there’s no way I’m going to buy gold. It’s just plain ugly.

Long story short, I settled with a space gray iPhone. Yes, it is a beauty.  I actually love the design, really simple and not crowded. It felt really nice when watching  videos.

The 4g load the data faster and the baterry life, oh my god, really last longer. Don’t make me start with the camera. Lol. And again, guess  what? I’m currently typing using my new toy, lol, this huge screen just make it so easy to update my blog and for student to read notes and do anything school related. This iPhone is, no doubt 100% better than my old Samsung.

Furthermore, I’m glad I bought 64gb. The fact that I can updates whatever applications and softwares without to worry or the need to delete any songs or the whole album just to make spaces on my phone. Haha.

I’m new with all this iOS thingy since I have been using Android since forever so if you have any tips or favorite apps you want to recommend me, feel free to drop your comments below.

Thank you and fare thee well. ‚ėļÔłŹ


Out of Place

Week 1 – 1532 KM from loved one.

I cried. Of course, I cried. I cried a river when I had to live without my family for the first time¬†even though Labuan from Beaufort was not that far away. I can just come home every weekend if I want to. Haha. I’m such a cry baby.

In spite¬†of that, I think I adapted faster in Kelantan compared to when I’m in Labuan. Maybe¬†because it was already my second time I had to live without my family.¬†Beside,¬†I have too.¬†I shed tears but not as much as the first time. Haha.

I’m still new with all of this stuff. Living alone, far away from my family and friends.¬†I miss Sabah. I miss my home, family, cats, friends and lecturers from Matriculation. I miss all of them.

My Sarawakian and Sabahan friends from Matriculation Labuan, they were the best. I had a wonderful time during our 1 year together. How I wish the time we spent with each other were a little bit longer.

See also: Batch 2013/2014

I guess a new journey has just begun. New friends. New environment. Everything is new and I’m all alone.

My first impression of Kelantan? Hmm, how do I begin? Well, I have¬†seen better. I’m not being biased but seriously, the mall, building, airport, roads, public facilities in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah is much better that in Kota Bharu, Kelantan.

My new classmates, well, I need more time to get to know them better and my roomy, I would probably hate you a little less if you are not so noisy and annoying. (Haha. Statement membunuh.)

However, I managed to keep my body and soul together and survived the orientation week. Tomorrow is the first day of class. Azsyerrah, fighting!

Wish me good luck and fare thee well.

UPDATED: Went to Pimpin Siswa (camping) for 3 days and 2 night, rode the same bus for an hour from Kubang Krian, Kelantan to Besut, Trengganu and slept in the same tent with some of my classmates, I guess they were not so bad after all. Heh? And I met 2 handsome seniors! Bonus.

A Shot At a Silver Lining

Do you still remember that feeling when you need to get up early for 5 days straight when you were still in high school? I do. It was such a horrible feeling but I survive.

High school was fun. You have your friends that you have known since you were kids. Gossips. Puppy love. The easiest part of life, they said and I agree.

You do not need to care about scholarship, student loan, 20k debts or more, going on interviews or getting rejected by your favorite university. Unemployment. Living far away from your home, family and friends. Society.

College was stressful for me but there were good times, there were bad times¬†and only Allah knows how my university life would be when the time comes. However,¬†I’m thankful for all my struggle because without them I wouldn’t¬†be the person I am today.

To anyone who still clueless about your goal in life or dreams in the future, let what you love be what you do. Do something that your future self will thank you for.

And of course, there will be always this kind of people,

Be a doctor, she said.

Be an engineer, he said.

Be a lawyer, they said.

And their reaction when you said what you want to be was none of the above.

“I am the one who will study for 4 to 5 years to get degrees, shit is not even free. Then, I’m going to work my¬†ass off until I’m¬†retired, 50 or 60 years old. So, why can’t I do something that I love?”

But of course, in reality I just stay quiet¬†because sometimes it’s better to react with no reaction… and I don’t want to be rude or overemotional because that’s not cute.

I wrote this post was just to help me¬†calm myself because¬†it’s already past 1AM, I’m still not sleepy and the result for my university admissions will be out soon and I would be lying if I said I’m not scared or nervous at all.

I’m freaking out! To be honest, I don’t even know what I’m going to do if I got rejected or doesn’t get my first choice.

But someone said this to me once,

“Whatever you get, just believe it is the one for you and it is meant to be. “

It does help me to calm a little and I hope it helps you too.¬†I do not know whether my life would go as plan but¬†that’s¬†okay.

It’s okay when your life did not end up where you thought you were going but you will always end up where you are meant to be.

It may sound cliche but EHFAR and if you stay positive in life you have a shot at a silver lining.

Wish me luck and fare thee well.

Let’s talk about Sarang


What do I know about love? NOTHING! Well, that’s a good start. I have always been that one friend who was always single when all my friends were in a relationship with each other. You know, a third wheel. Haha¬†ūüėÄ

There were¬†some boys who tried to make a move on me but I’m so good at pushing people away. Plus, my pushy and bossy¬†attitude just turn them off. Even my mom said I scared the boys away.¬†Not something that I should be proud of but even I think it’s funny. Haha.

Since I have always been the third wheel and a people watcher, I see a lot of shit people in a relationship do, mostly from people that I know. It’s making me feel scared to be in a relationship. Maybe someday, yea? Far, far away in the future.

Firstly, there were¬†always one couple who was¬†all mushy and lovey dovey when they were still in a relationship. All their¬†statuses and tweets were all about how happy and wonderful their relationship were¬†and making people vomits all over the keyboard. Why do you want the whole world to know about your relationship? Even couple who were married for 10 or 15 years doesn’t brag or advertise their relationship on social media.

Obviously, this kind of love usually doesn’t last long and when they break up, both of them will curse each other on Facebook and Twitter. They don’t even deserve your sympathy. They were like from “I love you to the moon and back.” to “I fucking hate you. Rot in hell!” They wrote all the curse words in all languages that they know on Facebook and you know who they were meant for. They even tell everyone all the bad stuff their partner did just to embarrass each other.

Their stupidity just amuse me.

Long distant relationship. Type of relationship I hate the most. Even though I don’t have any experience on this kind of relationship but all my friends who were once¬†in a long distant relationship get their heart broken. It’s either their partner cheated on them or break up with some lame excuses and 1 week later, they were in a new relationship.

People that change from one partner to another partner just amaze me. How can you say the 3 words so easily? Hell, how can you find a new boyfriend/girlfriend in a really short amount of time? They can’t even stay single for a week and their love last for a week or two. Was your love even real?

It takes time to know someone completely. When I’m in a relationship, only Allah knows when, Lol, I want it to last. However, the only ship that I desperately need¬†right now is scholarship. See what I did there. Hah!

Moving on..

I believe trust is the most important thing in a relationship. I know someone who have an overly attached girlfriend. She gets jealous easily over stupid things. He can’t even talk to other girls. Actually, both of them were full of doubt with each other. They were always fighting over silly things and post it on Facebook. God damn it Facebook. Why bother being in a relationship when you can’t even trust your partner, right?

Don’t rush. Take love slowly. Cheers and I hope whoever reading this have a wonderful ‚̧ life.

Hello, Cruel World!

Well, I’m actually already have a blog.¬†I made it using Blog.com. It’s not a popular blog sites as WordPress.com or Blogger.com but I just love the simplicity of the url. I think azsyerrah.wordpress.com is too long or¬†azsyerrah.blogspot.com is just plain ugly. I hate the “spot” thingy. Haha. But unfortunately, Blog.com suck platypus shit. It was okay at first, in fact it was great but then it constantly showing¬†502 Bad Gateway and took a lot of time to load. Bad Gateway And if you know me in real life I have low tolerance to bullshit so that’s why I made this second blog. Third I guess. My first would be Tumblr.com (Fell From Heaven), Blog.com (Wait For It) and WordPress.com (Dream a little Dream of Me). I’m going to close my blog at Blog.com after I finished transferring all of ¬†it here.¬†I guess WordPress.com is not so bad after all. Blogspot.com is just a no-no to me. Heh.blog-deleted

He was intimidating & I’m just awkward!


As you can see above, I took the MEdSI test and of course I passed since it was super easy. No need for the cold sweat or sad tears because you need it later.

2 weeks after that (I  think), I got an interview!


And guess what? The interview was today and of course when I was writing this, I already done with it. And and it was awful. Just like the title. Of course, I’m the problem. Why can’t I be as confident as Stephanie and as brave as Herlina when talking about our own opinion? Maybe that’s just me. Awkward, shy, low self-esteem and insecure. FML.

Moving on…

There are 2 interviewers, a female and a male. The female was really nice and calming and the male was exactly the opposite. A little bit intimidating but I guess I’m already familiar with this kind of people. *cough Sir SNSA *cough

They ask me to introduced myself in English, why I want to be a lecturer, give me a reason why we should choose you. It was a really basic questions but me being me, forever awkward. Again FML.

I wrote that the Ajushhi was really intimidating because he told me to change my course and to try Biotechnology, Chemical Engineering, Medic and bla bla bla. He was trying really hard to make me change my course. I just said no.

Everytime I answer any questions. he said that I’m very confusing. Ahhhh. He said that I was very confusing several times. He was like

Aku confuse la, confuse lah.

Bahaha. And the last time he said that I was confusing was when I was already standing up, ready to go and the female interviewer asked me whether Bachelor of Science in Education (Chemistry Major) was my 1st choice in UPU so I said no. Veterinary was my 1st choice. Bhaha. I should just lie. Well, at least I’m honest.

I was also told that to be a lecturer I need to be more confident and talk a lot. Which I am not. She also said that I’m not active in curriculum activities and I’m totally aware of that. I guess it was just not enough to only love to learn more about Chemistry and ambition to be a lecture. Lol. Because everyone can. And again, I’m just an average student.

And the worse feeling ever was when you are already in the car, on your way to go home and you just think of a really good comeback. And you were like Arghhhhh! Feel like punching yourself. If I passed the interview (more likely not) then I guess miracles do happen.

See also: August 12, 2014 at 12PM