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Whatever You Say I Am, I’m Okay

“I do not reread books. I’m lazy like that, I suppose. Plus, I have a lots of books remaining on my yet-to-read shelf, so it discourages me from reading stuff I’ve already read. Thus, know that since I wanted to reread this one, it is a very, very good read.”

That excerpt from the book Whatever You Say I am, I’m Okay (WYSIAIO) by Anwar Hadi is so relatable because for the past few weeks, I have been rereading, searching and buying books I’ve already read (Catatan Matluthfi, Langit Vanilla, Harry Potter series and WYSIAIO).

Whatever You Say I Am, I’m Okay by Anwar Hadi

I borrowed WYSIAIO from my roommate during my undergraduate years. I have been loving the book ever since and I even remembered crying while reading it. I wanted to reread it again and add it to my collection but here’s come the dilemma. I wanted to buy it but I felt like it would be a waste of money since I already read it and instead of buying it, isn’t it better to spent the money on new books that I’ve not read? You feel me? But it such a good read! I still want to reread it and nothing could ever stop me! The solution? I purchased it from Carousell, a good platform to sell and buy preloved items such as books, clothes, shoes and bags.

I genuinely did not know why people would resell their books because I am that type of person that loves to collect books, the good and even the bad one. Hence, I just assumed that they hate the books, while this may be true for some, the previous owner of Langit Vanilla told me he resells his books after he has done reading them because he knows he is not going to reread them. The money received from selling his old books was then used to buy a new one. Brilliant! However, I could never. I love my collection so much but thanks to these kinds of people, I could buy books in much cheaper ways so yeay!

Back to the book. WYSIAIO is a light read and consisted of two parts, Whatever You Say I Am (non-fiction) and I’m Okay (fiction, consisted of 21 short stories). The fiction part was not as good as the former except for A friend Made, that story made me smile, and Salty Coffee (one of the characters were crying while drinking coffee. Get it? Salty Coffee. Genius).

“On our last day on Earth, what is going to shine through is not how many personal achievements we have attained but how many hearts we were able to touch.”

Page 43, Salty Coffe

Other fictions especially One Night in Ramadan didn’t really give me an impact and felt like most the stories didn’t have any messages or maybe I am just too stupid to understand so I won’t comment much about that.

Moving on. I just wanted to share some quotes that I love from the non-fiction part. I hope I could share all of them but might as well as put pictures of all the 23 non-fictions lol. I have so many favourites such as Interesting Ferry Moments, Ask Yourself, Birthday, Poetry Recital, You will be Missed and more! Full of good messages and life lessons. I do hope that I could write like him someday. It is a good book to give as gift.

“And when at times of dire despair, when all hope seems lost, when you think you’ve reached your limit, think that it’s all too much, ask yourself, “Who knows you better? Yourself? Or The One that created you? The One that knows the past to your past, knows the future to your future and has been responsible for making your existence even possible?” Know the answer to that, and you can still smile at the end of the day, ‘coz you know that you’re in good hands. The best hands. His Hands.”

Page 20, Ask Yourself

“But what does one do when one is down? What one can do– get up. Crawl, if one has to. One needs to. For themselves. For the love of God.”

Page 53, I Am Man?

“Isn’t the most deserved person to be celebrated during our birthday is the “heroine” herself? The one who struggled for 9 months and 10 days with the extra ‘luggage’ in her tummy. Yeah, her. The person who cheated death while delivering the baby. The one who suffered the bruises and cuts just to make sure that her labour of love see the light ‘at the end of the tunnel’…. So, if our next birthday comes by, …. Who is the most deserving person to receive a gift? Who should be given cake and treated to their favorite meal instead? Let’s think about it.”

Page 41, Birthday

Catatan Matluthfi by Matluthfi

I owned a copy of Catatan Matluthfi before but I donated it along with other books to the library after I finished with my study in USM (thanks to the expensive fees of Air Asia checked baggage). I regretted the decision quickly after, should have kept this one but everything was too late. I was already across the South China Sea.

While I was searching for WYSIAIO, one of the seller on Carousell was reselling both WYSIAIO and Catatan Mathluthfi. Hence, I purchased both of them and it only cost me RM25 including postage to Sabah/Sarawak. RM25 is usually a cost for one book. I hit jackpot! Here’s a short review; another light read, penulisan yang bersahaja, funny and inspiring.

Done. Yeap, finished and as you can see, I am really bad at writing reviews. Usually only managed to write a short one. Hence, I prefer to post it on my Insta Story instead of here. Basically, this is my attempt in trying to be more active on my blog. I am bound to go MIA again in the future but till then, let’s write and rant whatever.

p.s. Please pardon my limited vocabulary and bad grammar. I’m still learning and grammar-nazis are totally welcome here. Cheers.

Book Review: Nikina By Nadia Khan


This review was first posted on my Instagram. It was written in mixed language, English and Malay, but mostly in Malay. A wrong platform to be honest because I never really did any book recommendation on my feed. However, I occasionally write short reviews and share books that I am currently reading on my Insta stories. Maybe If I am not lazy and not procrastinating, I could compile all of them here.

Written on April 9, 2019.

Another love story by Nadia Khan. Sama macam Kelabu and because of that kau baca sambil tak senang and tenang bontot since kene sentiasa ready untuk another crazy plot twist. Takut takut jantung kau berhenti dan otak kau berhenti pusing and pandang dinding lama macam orang hilang akal the same way macam kau baca Kelabu dulu sebab nak proses benda yang Nadia Khan tulis.

Sepanjang baca Nikina, kau akan buat macam macam assumptions dan jawapan semua ada dalam buku tapi kau takkan dapat unless kau habiskan baca and because of that juga aku habiskan buku ni in less than one day dan semua assumptions aku salah.

Dan jawapan yang aku dapat buat aku “oh..” but in a good way. Tak boleh fight Kelabu but Nadia Khan buat aku yang ada short attention span ni and akan letak tepi buku terus bila the book bore the hell of me untuk habiskan Nikina dengan jayanya tanpa memerlukan masa berbulan-bulan.

It’s been a while tau aku dapat buku yang buat aku baca non-stop. Contoh buku lain yang aku ingat ialah Kacau by Ariff Adly (wrote a review years ago in my blog. Blog dah bersawang dah pun).

Plus, Nikina ends the same way as Kelabu. Buat kau fikir sendiri tapi aku tak tau macam mana nak fikir. Aku malas fikir so aku fikir sekejap je.

Selingan: Hati sendiri libang libu (learn this word from the book), ada masa pula nak fikir pasal ending fictional characters kan lol

Talking about fictional characters, kadang-kadang aku boleh relate dengan Nik and sometimes aku boleh relate dengan Kina. Aku suka tulisan tulisan yang relateable (one of many reasons aku suka baca buku and puisi) sebab aku failed when it comes to translating my soul into words. Acah! Lack of communication skills, lack of vocabulary, low self-esteem and grammar hancur sebenarnya.

4/5 bintang from me.

p.s. sekarang patut tengah tulis thesis tapi aku manusia punya banyak alasan!

Thank you, Nadia Khan.

Book Review: Kacau By Ariff Adly

kacauKacau is a horror fiction written by Ariff Adly and it was scarier than most malay horror movies such as Khurafat or Karak.

I thought it was like any typical ghost stories because its all started when they played Ouija or Spirit of The Coin and end the game before saying a proper goodbye to the soul. I mean, that’s how you get killed in books or movies by ghosts.

However, that was not actually the reason why all of them were killed one by one in such a gruesome way. It was so unpredictable and I really love the ending.

You have such a wild imagination, Mr. Ariff Adly! All 7 characters were disturbed and some were killed. It was  disgusting and disturbing.

It would be amazing if someone turn this awesome book into a movie but of course without ruining it or leaving any important details. The way the writer describes how the characters were murdered or found dead was just nauseating. It was amazing!

I finished the book in just one day. I can’t stop because it was so nerve-wreaking! What I like most about this book was how Ariff Adly writes the book using 6 or 7 different point of views. It can be a little bit confusing but made the book more spine-chilling and hair-raising because it doesn’t leave out a single details, all the scary details! 4.5/5 stars.

I hope the author writes another book for the epilogue since he introduced 5 new characters playing the same game, Ouija. I’m totally going to buy it 😀

So yeah, I have read 4 books this month. It was a huge accomplishment for me since I’m not much of a reader. I chose book genres that I don’t usually buy or read, horror and mindfuck. I also bought 2 poetry books written by the same person, Mimi Morticia. I love it! My friends can’t believe me that I read poetry, even my mom. Well, I’m shocked too. I guess I managed to encourage myself to read more, eh?

See also: Tsundoku



Yep, that’s so me. I’m not much of a reader. I bought 4 books recently and now I have 5 to 6 unread books. Some of them are Nuansa Cita, Langdown Manor, The Devil Wears Prada & The Fault in Our Stars. I actually read The Fault in Our Stars but I just stop halfway. Don’t get me wrong, It was a great book and so well-written but when I stop, it will took me a long time before I started reading it again.

I don’t hate reading books. I do get all giddy when I walk in a bookstore. Books make life more interesting and give you a better perspective in life. You can find joy and peace of mind. Reading books is actually better than watching hundreds of movies. You use your imagination. Dreaming with open eyes.

Reading gives us someplace to go when we have to stay where we are. -Mason Cooley.

Maybe it’s just me. Maybe I did not pick the right book. Books that suit my taste. The right genre for me. I’m really bad at picking and I don’t know what kind of books to get. I have a hard time finding books that will keep my attention and doesn’t bore me easily. I usually just end up buying random books.

And I actually thought people that read books in bookstores a cheapskates and doesn’t want to pay. They want to read books for free. That was what I thought when actually they were reading the first few pages to know whether they want to keep reading it or not. To know whether the book was worth it. Unlike me, I just randomly pick a book based on their cover. “Oh this book is in pink! Must be good.” And that’s just how stupid I am, people.

We should not judge a book by its cover or movie but that’s normal I guess. The first thing that catches our eyes when choosing books to read are the book design and tittle. I usually just bought something from the Most Popular or Staff Picks shelves or Ideal Bookshelves because it’s easier that way. But that doesn’t mean it suits my interest or doesn’t get me bored right away. So that’s just some of the reasons why I have so many books that I still have not read yet but I do have my favorite book, Can You Keep a Secret? by Sophie Kinsella. Good plot.

So here’s the things I’ve learned,

  • Once you find the book that interest you, read a few pages and ask yourself if you want to continue reading it.
  • Don’t think you have to read a certain book because everyone else does or it was the best-selling book.
  • Choose a book based on topic or genre that you are interested in.
  • Read book reviews or ask someone to recommend a good book to you and that’s what I’m going to do now.

Tell me some good books that you have read and would recommend to me. And now I’m going to finish The Fault in Our Star by John Green, 60 pages to go. I really need to encourage myself to read more.