Socialite but at the same time, anti-social

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The plan was to meet a friend from another university at Georgetown, Penang on the mid-term break but, sadly, it was cancel at the last minute. How disappointing! But on the bright side, I have 1 week to read all the books published by Fixi that I have always wanted and I can have the room all by myself. Eh? What a loser.

So yeah, I don’t have any plans for this 1 whole week (yet), all alone since all my roommates went back to their hometown and I’m writing this because I’m bored. Boredom kills and I don’t want to die yet. I’m still using Samsung and not an iPhone. JK.

One of my seniors ask me to join this one activity with her for the mid-term break but Sodium Hydrogen. There’s actually a lot of activities I can join during this break but my lazy ass just doesn’t want to move. (I’m so proud of you, dear self.)

I said yes at first to her but then cancel at the last minute by giving lame excuses (but she still bought it. Err, I think so.) because Azsyerrah is just being herself, an introvert and prefer to be alone in her room reading books and of course, she would rather be playing with evil cats on the street and get scratches by the furry demons on her already homely face than socializing with people.

Especially, with people who she can’t be herself.

It was a 1 week program and I was like already tired just thinking about it. I mean it is a mid-term break, a BREAK for god’s sake! A break for everything. I have enough of pretending to like people for about, I don’t know, a month and a half, maybe?

I’m so beat. I do nothing but I’m dead on my feet.

However, I’m not THAT standoffish that you think I am. I can be a socialite (If I’m famous for no reasons, my reality TV show would probably beat KUWTK. Hey, a girl can dream!), I just need to find someone who I can socialize with. The right one and not just anybody. Haha.

By the way, where the hell is my travel buddy? I may not look like a fun person but I can be cool sometimes, you know. We have 4 years to wander. Hurry up and show yourself.

“Masih mencari yang satu cephalic.” -September 22, 2014 at 7:53pm.

Adieu.

18 thoughts on “Socialite but at the same time, anti-social”

  1. nikgee

    Hello came by to see who liked my poem. It’s funny because I usually don’t do poems. I’ve read some and I guess I was intimidated thinking I could never get my words to flow like that. On this occasion I was paying more attention to the weather than my insecurities and those are the words that came out. I wish to thank you for liking my poem. And to say I enjoyed your rant. Dream a little Dream of me. It’s a verse out of a song sung by Mama Cass. Very cool. Anyway, I wish you luck in your quest. Keep in mind life is a journey our journey. Sometimes it is hard to see clearly the direction till we get up and move in a direction. It isn’t very long before you will see someone on the same path as your own. Take your liberty and walk together for a time. Enjoy the hand of the Creator pointing the way. I look forward to hearing from you some time stories of your adventurous journey.nick

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    1. azsyerrah Post author

      It was my pleasure 🙂 It was a really good poem. Keep writing! 😀
      I have never heard of Mama Cass actually but the tittle of my blog was actually from 1 of the episodes of The Supernatural. Hihi. I’m a fan.
      And thanks for the advice. I really needed that 🙂

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      1. nikgee

        Mama cass was one of door aw in a 60s band called ‘the Mamas and the Papas kpnd of folk with a beat type in their name on you tube their music is very good

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  2. nikgee

    Wow you are almost a full day ahead of me by time zone. I must confess I didn’t have a clue as to where your location is. So not to appear totally stupid I went to my good friend Google and typed in the location. I am amazed at how little I know about that part of the world. One of the pluses of the blogging world is experiencing places and things I may never have dreamt of. Pretty amazing you all are around a lot of water. Wow! My world desert water is a comity Arizona I very different. I live in Phoenix. It is in the middle of the state desert. Travel one hour and a half north and you have mountains, lakes, rivers ,snow and rain. We get rain from time to time , but never snow . It doesn’t get cold enough. Anyway, I best stop before I over stay my welcome. Given the chance I write and write and write. Babbling on.nick

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    1. azsyerrah Post author

      Haha. It’s currently 8:13PM here in Malaysia when I’m writing this. My hometown is in Sabah, Malaysia but currently living in Kubang Krian, Kelantan. 2 hours & 30 minutes by flight. So yeah, I’m far away from home. 1 week of holiday but can’t go home since the flight ticket was way to expensive. Haha. And yes, Sabah is full of nature but unfortunately, we don’t have snow here. Aha. And it usually rain here during the afternoon. Besides, it’s currently monsoon season so it rain everyday here in Kelantan. Haha.
      Btw, thanks nick 😀

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      1. nikgee

        So what do plan to do with all your schooling? do you have a career in mind? i am thinking there is a class or two on creative writing that i want to take i love the positive energy in a learning environment..it makes me feel alive. Anyway, sorry to hear about our holiday plan ya it seems like the price of everything is going up .. everyday folks are getting hit the hardest.. Okay i have to ask Btw what does it mean? Time to go get some breakfasg. then the moving thing..nick

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      2. azsyerrah Post author

        I’m currently studying degrees in Forensic science. I don’t know why but sometimes I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing. Asking questions like is this the right path? Is this the right choice? I just don’t know.

        Ahh, good for you! I’d love to read another poem of yours 😀

        I know right. It’s also hard for us student. Hewhew.

        Btw is by the way. Aha. Moving thing? You moved to a new house, eh?

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  3. Jon B.

    I loved and enjoyed your blog, anti-socialite, made me chuckle a bit line by line but a bit of a downer with the “homely face” reference. I’ll let it slide this time. I can relate because it seems the internet is my soul mate and blogging my best friend. The only time get out of the apt is to earn a living unfortunately. Don’t stay sheltered too long because when your older it gets even harder to make friends,

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    1. azsyerrah Post author

      Thank you so much for reading and taking your time to write a comment. Really appreciated it 😀
      I know right. Aha. The only reason why I usually get out of the house when I have classes.. and maybe when I was hungry in the middle of the night. Need to search for food. Aha. Need to get out from my comfort zone and thanks for the reminder 😀

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